It's my birthday today. I celebrated by spending a fortune making my favorite shoes great again. Life is good. I never thought life could be like this: Easy and filled with happiness. I was unhappy and depressed for a long long time. There were eating disorders, sick friends, various body issues, heartbreaks and failed studies. But now, things are good. I just want to press pause. Let everything be.
I know I come off as overly optimistic. Of all fictional characters, I sometimes feel I can relate most easily to Garfields annoyingly perky friend Odie.
Perhaps Odie was born like that. Perhaps he's seen the other side, perhaps he received lots of love or even medication and can't believe his luck when things worked out for the better.
I don't believe in any God, higher being or any mysterious power. I'm constantly amazed by the weirdness of us being here and the miracle of us being here together.
I often feel that I'm the luckiest person in the world. Someone has to be, and I might be the one. I think there's room for many of us being the luckiest. I'm so grateful you can't believe it.
Feel free to smack me over the head. You still can't stop me from having this feeling.
I look so serious in that pic above. I've said it before and I'll say it again: I'm serious about being happy.
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i love this post! and happy birthday to you!
as I am only 20 (almost 21), i am in the midst of all the dramas you describe. i can't wait until i am in the place you are now :)
Happy birthday, dear E! And thanks for the help today!I've sent you some flowers from my garden with some very nice people that came by... Wishing you an excellent dinner, and of course even more happiness,
C
Happy birthday and thank you for your blog- I think it and you are both wonderful. I too am now very happy and settled, in my 30's with a wonderful husband- we have been together for a long time, but my youth was full of insecurity and unhappiness and I could never imagine myself the way I feel now. That is one good thing about the passing years- with them comes increased confidence and fortitude. Wishing you all the happiness you deserve.
Rings true for many, those words.
And yep, being here is just plain wacky.
Tillykke med fødselsdagen!
I love you, Emi, for who you are. This post was yet another confirmation of that. Please stay like that forever. Happy bday.
dear emi, happy happy birthday. your post is the sweetest. so positive, so ful of bliss.
irina
Happy Birthday!
Thank you people! I read every word you write to me. I means so much to me. Big love
-e
Grattis Emi!
Du kanske är så lycklig för att du springer så mycket...? Snart ska jag börja springa med dig igen! kram emma
fantastic! please share your happiness tips more often!! for instance how did you turn everything around from being unhappy to feeling so thankful? by the way happy birthday! you are wonderful.
anonymous - prozac and love made a huge difference to me.
80% of what you write makes my mouth turn up at the sides, 19% makes me squawk uncontrollably with laughter and this one just allowed me to let out that breath i must have been holding in for months.
so it gets ok, in the end? so relieved to hear that.
thanks
x
happy birthday emi!
I am yet to get to that stage but happy to know that things do work out for the better.
hugs
reen
I love you emi.
Because your worth it. Love always!
Aww. You're a darling. Happy birthday, again!
Happy Birthday Emi !!
Thanks for this post. It made my day today! I really love the kind of people that gather around your blog.
Love from Canada,
L
happy birthday! what a great place to be!
E,
I think I kinda adore you. But not in a creepy stalker-ish way, truly. Happy Birthday!
L
Many Happy Returns Odie. I was stunned to read your words - would never have imagined you feeling low. If happiness is a self-fullfilling prophesy, you are the living proof.
Why do you mention not believing in God?
Reads like a chronology of my life too! Perhaps this is why we like you so much Emi: you are Everywoman, but at our most glamourous, witty, best.
To those who wonder about coming out the other side of your dramas: love and happy drugs helped me too but what helped the most was CBT. That and getting older.
Grattis på födelsedagen Emi.
why would I not mention a belief in god or higher power? I believe it shapes one's identity. I often envy people who believe but have not yet made it work work me.another question is how I could spell believe wrong.
"Feel free to smack me over the head."
Um, I think I'd rather playfully swot your ass, if that's OK with you...
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